4.13.07 - oh tonight?

You can't create without intake
a girl I know heard stories told
about escapeful abuses and calamity
Jane ate the bastard

I was raised to be eloquent
it was a war my parents fought
to erase where I'm from and shame
my generation

my friends call out "oh alexis! what is wrong!"
the honest answer is I don't know,
but i think nothing
oh I love us (missing) (crushing)
"loving (us) (you) dear"

I intentionally left 5 minutes late
I meant to get that bad grade
it defines me as this failure
the song of my age

will I be your type
when I become the hawk of war?
will you remember when we built that fort
at the end of the Rock?

we go so far back, we've changed so much
i just watched my fuel deploy
roll across the subway floor

4.10.07 - lucy

i love you nip
walk away and listen
i'll fake you out too
no you never scratch
i love you nip
stay in bed with me you
misnamed little miscreant
he loves you each other
you're a hit

4.10.07 - firestarter

if hollywood doesn't get behind the war, we won't win

ocelot ocelot on my fface
i know we've lost a lot
letting regret fester
wrecked the back of my teeth
my skin stretches to the wall
my heart shrinks
thumps hard
pump pump
no blood
tigheter creating a black hole
that sucks in my lungs
until my insides have disappeared

i molted my skin

04.08.07 / Easter

I prayed some when I was 19
I'd vomit on the street in broad daylight
and make friends with those who stared
and amends with those who walked away

a crushing guilt I was born into
broke me from my family
It snowed yesterday
and today is easter sunday

If the lord has Risen
in here did he lie
(if the Lord has risen)
is that what fell from the sky and into my hair

3.30.07 - 18 son

there is a light bulb in my skull but no electricity in my body. cut off. shave into a shape. make the old movements. backpedal to progress. let her curl on your body. protection is as it is as a sign of life. don't we act on our defenses? and always we'll wait to come to our senses
for aawake up call. or we won't ignore
we'll bend down to pick a penny off the floor
whenever on earth
you fate to dig
there will be dirt
and it will soil you
and it will makr you
be glad it's there
go wash your hands
taste a castle made of sand

if i do just naught
i just not just won't just don't
fele the urge to ever move
i would just not here
if i had no one to hurt